13 July 2004 01:40:26
Sorry

Sorry to ruin your fun... but why not get a life?

Ryan Hemauer
09 November 2003 02:32:13
Test 5

Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||| 42%
Gregariousness |||||||||||||| 58%
Assertiveness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Activity Level |||||||||||||||| 66%
Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||| 46%
Cheerfulness |||||||||| 34%
Extroversion |||||||||||||| 52%
Trust |||||||||| 38%
Morality |||||||||| 34%
Altruism |||||||||||| 50%
Cooperation |||||| 26%
Modesty |||||||||||| 42%
Sympathy |||||||||| 38%
Friendliness |||||||||| 38%
Self-Efficacy |||||||||||||| 58%
Neatness |||||||||| 38%
Dutifulness |||||||||||||| 58%
Achievement |||||||||||||||| 70%
Self-Discipline |||||||||||||||| 62%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 42%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 54%
Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Anger |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Depression |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Self-Consciousness |||||||||||| 50%
Immoderation |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Vulnerability |||||||||||| 42%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||| 67%
Imagination |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Artistic Interests |||||||||| 38%
Emotionality |||||||||||||||| 66%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 54%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Liberalism |||||||||| 34%
Intellectualness |||||||||||||| 58%
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Ryan Hemauer
09 November 2003 02:18:38
Test 4

Conscious self
Overall self
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Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||| 60%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 54%
Type 3 Ambition |||||||||||||||||| 75%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 52%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 47%
Type 8 Hostility |||||||||||||||||| 71%
Type 9 Calmness |||||| 24%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 6w5
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 4w5
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Ryan Hemauer
09 November 2003 01:57:35
Test 3

Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Schizoid |||||||||||||| 54%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 62%
Antisocial |||||||||||||| 54%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 66%
Dependent |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||| 62%
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Ryan Hemauer
09 November 2003 01:48:05
Test 2

ISTP - "Artisan". Impulsive action. Life should be of impulse rather than of purpose. Action is an end to itself. Fearless, craves excitement, master of tools. 5.4% of total population.
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Ryan Hemauer
09 November 2003 01:37:31
The Test

ESTP - "Promotor". Action! When present, things begin to happen. Fiercely competitive. Entrepreneur. Often uses shock effect to get attention. Negotiator par excellence. 4.3% of total population.
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Ryan Hemauer
04 October 2003 19:55:45
mmmmm pills

So, as the important people know, I am all good. YAY!! I now have to take a whole bunch of pills for a few months, but it is worth it! Keep the bad stuff out of my body. I've just been doing work from home for a while... It seems to be working out. It really shows who cares about you though... the people who you think matter most, don't even give a part of themselves to help ya out. That is why I am a firm believer of living your life today, not living it ten years out, you may not be alive in ten years! Be happy today! Talk to ya'll later.

Ryan Hemauer
10 September 2003 03:03:29
He's Back!!

Well then... it's now safe to say the old headstrong Ryan is back.... and twice a good as before!!!! Long story.... but not for this blog... needless to say.... I have relieved all prior issues from me now.... and have reverted to who I know better! Speaking of words... as my mind was... it's funny how one word can have two completely different meanings, yet sound the same... as opposed to the word lead. The word terminal has two different meanings... .a place where all information is grouped as in a plane terminal, or mainframe... or to mean life ending..... very very odd, well that dream has taken me further into the upcoming trauma.... but I need to face the dream so I can face my future!!!!! Good night all.

Ryan Hemauer
08 September 2003 14:44:12
Go V-Hawks
Ryan Hemauer
07 September 2003 23:55:06
The beginning


your fuck.

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Ryan Hemauer
07 September 2003 20:02:21
Phone

Damn the cell phones in this world.... if anyone want's to call me, call my land line 651-793-7448..... my cell phone is going to the graveyard....

Ryan Hemauer
06 September 2003 21:36:37
Insert

From my fave British band:

 

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Ryan Hemauer
06 September 2003 01:29:08
WYSIWYG

What You See Is What You Get

Ryan Hemauer
03 September 2003 22:35:35
Just another day

Well, I finally left the twilight zone.... today was a LOT better.... things are back to normal at work... I once again know what I need to do....

Someone tried to play his Jedi mind tricks on me last night.... those stupid fools... I hope the reverb of my brainwaves hurt..... and if you think I am talking about you, I probably am not....

I have decided it's time for me to live my life again... someone told me last night that if others are being selfish, so should you, and I agree... but I won't be a selfish ass, just an ass that is selfish....

I am planning a trip to New York soon, hopefully this month... I don't want to go alone, but probably will end up doing so..... RJP,  you wanna meet up?  Oh well, time for bed... my dreams last night were once again premonitions of things to come... not in great detail, but more as warnings of things to come... the overwhelming message... "you will reap what you sow.... karma will dictate everything..." so I will try to live my life as I want to be treated... I will love all, hate none, and go with the flow... note... not move on, as that would mean I am not happy with my life... I may not be happy right now, but I am not upset at my life at this time... oh well... the second part of my dream gave me a detailed account of a "distaster" to come.... very detailed... all I can say... may He have mercy on your souls (He being the "greater power", "God", "wise one", etc.) as things are not what they seem and you will never be the same... for the details, check my other blog....he he he... aren't I evil?

Until the next time... I love ya all, even if you don't love me!!

Ryan Hemauer
26 August 2003 23:00:53
What Values One's Life? - Personal

Got my tires changed, YAY!  $235 freakin' dollars?  WTF?  They were only $85.... where did the other $70 come from? I scared myself at work... I have to stop with those thoughts, they are not healthy as they are anti-health thoughts....

Oh well... I'm off to bed. I certainly hope tomorrow goes better!

Ryan Hemauer
26 August 2003 21:24:35
What Values One's Life?-Business

EErrrrggggg..... that explains my day! How I wish I could come home to someone, grab a hold of them and not let go until the morning... unfortunately, I come home to an empty stuffy apartment.I am almost to the breaking point at work... I tend to be a bit of a hard nose, but if someone is going to tell me to do my job half-assed, then I begin to question why even try?

I have spent four years of college and five years in the workforce with a concentration on inventory management, I may have a little bit of a clue on how things should run. As for asset tracking, once again, I am now found to wonder, was I lied to in all of my accounting classes? What I get from people is who cares about the assets, who cares where they are and if they are still usable... oh well, I must suffer in silence at work... as no one there really seems to care. We got a list of projects for our unit, and although Marilyn's name is on most of them, she only plays a supervisory role, where as I am on 75-80% and play the main role in all of them.... hmmmm a bit overworked and underpaid? Well, we'll see... I am still hoping that www.mygascheck.com will help me break out and make some money.....

That thought crossed my mind again, and afterwards that self loathing came.... why oh why oh why?

Ryan Hemauer
15 August 2003 11:56:45
Feelings...Nothing More Than Feelings

Do you ever get that feeling you've done something wrong, but you don't know what? Sometimes I think I say things intending to mean one thing, but it comes out totally diferent. Well, with time most wounds are healed... I just hope that whatever I did/said will be made known to me soon! I hate being paranoid about such things!!

RJP, why are you not writing? You are not allowed to sleep until you write.... ha ha ha.

OH and by the way..... US Bankcorp sucks!!! If you are going to change your programming, why not test it first? It's really hard for some of us to pay our bills when we can't even get access to funds!!!!

Ryan Hemauer

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Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 78%
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So, as the important people know, I am all good. YAY!! I now have to take a whole bunch of pills for a few months, but it is worth it! Keep the bad stuff out of my body. I've just been doing work from home for a while... It seems to be working out. It really shows who cares about you though... the people who you think matter most, don't even give a part of themselves to help ya out. That is why I am a firm believer of living your life today, not living it ten years out, you may not be alive in ten years! Be happy today! Talk to ya'll later.

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Volleyball!!!
http://www.viterbo.edu/students/ss/athletics/volleyball/

Yep, that's my sis!!! I'm proud of you!!!!
http://www.viterbo.edu/students/ss/athletics/volleyball/new_page_4.htm

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your fuck.

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From my fave British band:

 

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

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Well, I finally left the twilight zone.... today was a LOT better.... things are back to normal at work... I once again know what I need to do....

Someone tried to play his Jedi mind tricks on me last night.... those stupid fools... I hope the reverb of my brainwaves hurt..... and if you think I am talking about you, I probably am not....

I have decided it's time for me to live my life again... someone told me last night that if others are being selfish, so should you, and I agree... but I won't be a selfish ass, just an ass that is selfish....

I am planning a trip to New York soon, hopefully this month... I don't want to go alone, but probably will end up doing so..... RJP,  you wanna meet up?  Oh well, time for bed... my dreams last night were once again premonitions of things to come... not in great detail, but more as warnings of things to come... the overwhelming message... "you will reap what you sow.... karma will dictate everything..." so I will try to live my life as I want to be treated... I will love all, hate none, and go with the flow... note... not move on, as that would mean I am not happy with my life... I may not be happy right now, but I am not upset at my life at this time... oh well... the second part of my dream gave me a detailed account of a "distaster" to come.... very detailed... all I can say... may He have mercy on your souls (He being the "greater power", "God", "wise one", etc.) as things are not what they seem and you will never be the same... for the details, check my other blog....he he he... aren't I evil?

Until the next time... I love ya all, even if you don't love me!!

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EErrrrggggg..... that explains my day! How I wish I could come home to someone, grab a hold of them and not let go until the morning... unfortunately, I come home to an empty stuffy apartment.I am almost to the breaking point at work... I tend to be a bit of a hard nose, but if someone is going to tell me to do my job half-assed, then I begin to question why even try?

I have spent four years of college and five years in the workforce with a concentration on inventory management, I may have a little bit of a clue on how things should run. As for asset tracking, once again, I am now found to wonder, was I lied to in all of my accounting classes? What I get from people is who cares about the assets, who cares where they are and if they are still usable... oh well, I must suffer in silence at work... as no one there really seems to care. We got a list of projects for our unit, and although Marilyn's name is on most of them, she only plays a supervisory role, where as I am on 75-80% and play the main role in all of them.... hmmmm a bit overworked and underpaid? Well, we'll see... I am still hoping that www.mygascheck.com will help me break out and make some money.....

That thought crossed my mind again, and afterwards that self loathing came.... why oh why oh why?

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Got my tires changed, YAY!  $235 freakin' dollars?  WTF?  They were only $85.... where did the other $70 come from? I scared myself at work... I have to stop with those thoughts, they are not healthy as they are anti-health thoughts....

Oh well... I'm off to bed. I certainly hope tomorrow goes better!

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Do you ever get that feeling you've done something wrong, but you don't know what? Sometimes I think I say things intending to mean one thing, but it comes out totally diferent. Well, with time most wounds are healed... I just hope that whatever I did/said will be made known to me soon! I hate being paranoid about such things!!

RJP, why are you not writing? You are not allowed to sleep until you write.... ha ha ha.

OH and by the way..... US Bankcorp sucks!!! If you are going to change your programming, why not test it first? It's really hard for some of us to pay our bills when we can't even get access to funds!!!!

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So, as the important people know, I am all good. YAY!! I now have to take a whole bunch of pills for a few months, but it is worth it! Keep the bad stuff out of my body. I've just been doing work from home for a while... It seems to be working out. It really shows who cares about you though... the people who you think matter most, don't even give a part of themselves to help ya out. That is why I am a firm believer of living your life today, not living it ten years out, you may not be alive in ten years! Be happy today! Talk to ya'll later.

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Volleyball!!!
http://www.viterbo.edu/students/ss/athletics/volleyball/

Yep, that's my sis!!! I'm proud of you!!!!
http://www.viterbo.edu/students/ss/athletics/volleyball/new_page_4.htm

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your fuck.

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What You See Is What You Get

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From my fave British band:

 

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
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It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

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Well, I finally left the twilight zone.... today was a LOT better.... things are back to normal at work... I once again know what I need to do....

Someone tried to play his Jedi mind tricks on me last night.... those stupid fools... I hope the reverb of my brainwaves hurt..... and if you think I am talking about you, I probably am not....

I have decided it's time for me to live my life again... someone told me last night that if others are being selfish, so should you, and I agree... but I won't be a selfish ass, just an ass that is selfish....

I am planning a trip to New York soon, hopefully this month... I don't want to go alone, but probably will end up doing so..... RJP,  you wanna meet up?  Oh well, time for bed... my dreams last night were once again premonitions of things to come... not in great detail, but more as warnings of things to come... the overwhelming message... "you will reap what you sow.... karma will dictate everything..." so I will try to live my life as I want to be treated... I will love all, hate none, and go with the flow... note... not move on, as that would mean I am not happy with my life... I may not be happy right now, but I am not upset at my life at this time... oh well... the second part of my dream gave me a detailed account of a "distaster" to come.... very detailed... all I can say... may He have mercy on your souls (He being the "greater power", "God", "wise one", etc.) as things are not what they seem and you will never be the same... for the details, check my other blog....he he he... aren't I evil?

Until the next time... I love ya all, even if you don't love me!!

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EErrrrggggg..... that explains my day! How I wish I could come home to someone, grab a hold of them and not let go until the morning... unfortunately, I come home to an empty stuffy apartment.I am almost to the breaking point at work... I tend to be a bit of a hard nose, but if someone is going to tell me to do my job half-assed, then I begin to question why even try?

I have spent four years of college and five years in the workforce with a concentration on inventory management, I may have a little bit of a clue on how things should run. As for asset tracking, once again, I am now found to wonder, was I lied to in all of my accounting classes? What I get from people is who cares about the assets, who cares where they are and if they are still usable... oh well, I must suffer in silence at work... as no one there really seems to care. We got a list of projects for our unit, and although Marilyn's name is on most of them, she only plays a supervisory role, where as I am on 75-80% and play the main role in all of them.... hmmmm a bit overworked and underpaid? Well, we'll see... I am still hoping that www.mygascheck.com will help me break out and make some money.....

That thought crossed my mind again, and afterwards that self loathing came.... why oh why oh why?

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Got my tires changed, YAY!  $235 freakin' dollars?  WTF?  They were only $85.... where did the other $70 come from? I scared myself at work... I have to stop with those thoughts, they are not healthy as they are anti-health thoughts....

Oh well... I'm off to bed. I certainly hope tomorrow goes better!

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Do you ever get that feeling you've done something wrong, but you don't know what? Sometimes I think I say things intending to mean one thing, but it comes out totally diferent. Well, with time most wounds are healed... I just hope that whatever I did/said will be made known to me soon! I hate being paranoid about such things!!

RJP, why are you not writing? You are not allowed to sleep until you write.... ha ha ha.

OH and by the way..... US Bankcorp sucks!!! If you are going to change your programming, why not test it first? It's really hard for some of us to pay our bills when we can't even get access to funds!!!!